今天，跟同學講了一些過去的事情。。。忽然間，我發現自己長大、堅強了許多。。。

以前的我，不會爲了柴米油鹽擔心。。。
以前的我，不會在假期打工。。。
以前的我，不會自己想辦法解決問題。。。
以前的我，不會在乎身上有多少錢。。。
以前的我，天不怕、地不怕。。。
以前的我，非常愛撒嬌、耍賴。。。
以前的我，被譽爲千金小姐。。。
以前的我，真的很不一樣。。。

現在的我，每頓飯都要有預算。。。
現在的我，還沒假期就再找Part Time Job。。。
現在的我，有什麽是自己先扛下來。。。
現在的我，口袋剩不到五十，就得去準備現金。。。
現在的我，杞人憂天。。。
現在的我，撒不起嬌、耍不起賴。。。
現在的我，有點像落難公主。。。

其實，我從來沒有想過，我會是需要打假期工的人。雖然這樣說，會讓很多人覺得我很驕傲，可是，我就是在這種環境下長大的。。。我的哥哥姐姐，沒有一個在大學時期打工。。。而且個個都有零用錢花。我很多時候，有什麽東西都盡量省，要不就找工。我現在不是在埋怨什麽，我只是想有一個傾訴的管道。。。

有時候，聽到同學們忙著說自己沒錢，我會懷疑，到底他們所謂的沒有錢，是什麽呢？沒錢買新電腦？沒錢買新手機？沒錢去唱K？沒錢去玩？如果我是以前的我，所謂的沒錢就是這些咯。。。可現在的我，沒錢=沒生活費，沒飯吃。。。每學期都需要自己賺，自己花，自己省吃儉用。。。這學期，我不止是忙得沒得回家，我也有點擔心回太多，我會沒錢吃飯。。。想一想，以前的林淑姍，應該不會爲了這些小事擔心吧！？！？

不過，我也很慶幸有這樣的生活經驗，讓我體會到真正的人生。。。不要擔心太多，上帝自有安排！加油吧！！Fighting~~

Finally, after a few hectic weeks, my tests are all GONE... wahahahaha.... although i didn't do very well for these tests, i still very happy cos my 2nd year life almost end lor~~~(should i feel sad because i'm getting older in my university??)

There are more things waiting for me to finish by now...
1. BBI assignment - proposal for grammar game... (Omigosh... what age are we in and we still have to play games!?!?!?!?!)
2. BBI assignment - Self Directed Learning... they give us lots of webpages and ask us to do exercises... but it seems more like copying what the page said rather than doing our own job... lolx...
3. Food Chemistry - scrap book. I'll be going to either mid valley or the mines with yeeying to do search for any possible wrappers for our scrap book... muahahaha...
4. Chemical analysis - Journal... so tired about doing that lab... and we have to do our report like journal that can be published.... TENSION LAR~~~
5. Sensory Evaluation - This friday is our sensory lab... we have to learn how to prepare our sample and also serve... THIS IS A HUGE CHALLENGE because we have to do it on friday noon where our uni is "KOSONG" OMG!!! scary scary....

It seems like a lot of things to do right? But i'm so relax and still blogging here... OMG!!!! who can come and slap me so that i can wake up and start doing my job?!?!?!? HELP~~~

anyway... just try my best lar.... HWAITING!!! ^^

I suddenly feel myself become a final year student this few days. Super busy until no time to have my dinner just like yesterday... haiz...

First of all, case study for Analytical Chemistry for Food.... Everyday LABs LABs LABs....... summore have to prepare own sample, own solution, own steps..... finally, own report as it is a journal....

Secondly, assignment for Sensory Evaluation of Yellow Noodles.
We have to knead our own dough to make the noodles, cook it, prepare the soup base, handle the test and analyse the result of our noodles... this is the subject that i scared the most as i almost failed my 1st test... Omigosh~~~~

Thirdly, assignment for food chemistry... Scrap book with tonnes of wrappers to be prepared... but i havent even finish collecting those wrappers..... ops... dun let Dr. Kharidah see this blog... she'll kill me cos actually we didnt need tonnes of the wrappers.. hahahahaha.....

Fourthly, NO TIME TO GO BACK HOME!!!!
The last date i'm at Penang is 21st February, and until now, i havent back home even once.... I miss my hokkien mee, curry mee, laksa, satay, char kuey teow, ban chang kueh and chee cheong fun so much lar~~~ who can FedEx it to me?!?!??!?! T_T
In addition, my ON AIR episode 17 spoiled d... i cant watch it and i'm tergantung in between the drama.... so sad lar... cant back home summore no drama to watch... ISHH...

I wonder when can i reach Penang... will it be the 1st week of April? seems like impossible...
Will it be the 2nd weekend of April... I hope so....
If not, i'll only be at penang after april.... GOSH...
Can anyone imagine LIM SUE SHAN sitting in residential college every week and online doin nth, sleep eat shit everyday??? Even myself cant believe it.... sobs......

Now i can only hope that my mom can come down for interview as soon as possible and most probably weekends... then i can really have a good break...